On October 2, 2014, I was robbed and sexually assaulted. I felt like my family, especially my boys, would be better off without me.
After the assault I tried heroin for the first time. I waited to die, but instead I came to in an ambulance. I remember being angry—I didn’t understand why God wouldn’t just let me die. I continued drinking, hoping my life would somehow end.
While walking home drunk one night, I fell on some railroad tracks. I was told that the train stopped about four feet away from me. At the time, I wished the train hadn’t stopped.
I entered Teen Challenge without expecting to finish the whole year. Until that point, I’d been addicted to many things, cut and burned myself, overdosed three times, and was in and out of abusive relationships. It was when I embraced the program that I realized I didn’t need drugs or anything else to feel whole. All I really needed, and always had needed, was Jesus.
God has blessed me with an extremely caring and supportive family. Through everything I’ve done and put them through, they’ve never judged me or left my side. My boys are now 16 and 17. They know why I was in the program and are proud of me for completing it. My hope is that the paths I’ve chosen will help them choose to stay on the right track.
The Bible says that many were called, few were chosen. I want to strive to be the person that God created me to be. Being in Teen Challenge has taught me that forgiveness is not a sign of weakness, but a sign that my faith is strengthening.
The scripture that most speaks to me is Deuteronomy 7:6: “For you are a people holy to the Lord your God. The Lord your God has chosen you out of all the peoples on the face of the earth to be his people, his treasured possession.”